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After Life Thoughts – Amber Fillerup Clark

After Life Thoughts – Amber Fillerup Clark

Since sharing that I’ve left the Mormon church – I’ve realized what number of of you might be in related conditions. For me, one of many scariest ideas was what to do with the after life beliefs I had beforehand held.. And I wished to share a few of my ideas from the final yr or so with you in case it occurs to assist anybody or spark any new concepts for your self. This can be a very susceptible subject and one which in actuality, nobody is “proper” about as a result of none of us really know for positive. We will all maintain beliefs and place confidence in these however none of us can inform the opposite they’re flawed, solely that they don’t share the identical perception.

As a number of you already know, the mormon church believes that households may be collectively ceaselessly. I’d say it is among the principal pillars of the church is this concept of everlasting households. And if you depart mormonism you do type go, holy crap wait is it true or not? I feel what we consider ought to actually simply be what brings us essentially the most peace whereas on earth. Not in an insensitive means, however in a really literal means, none of us will care if what we believed wasn’t true as soon as we’re useless, as a result of… we shall be useless. So we simply have to have peace and luxury right here and now. I completely see how the concept of everlasting households is a incredible perception that may deliver a lot peace to those that have suffered loss. I really assume it’s a very wholesome perception to hold with you so long as folks don’t lean on it as a crutch when being there for others grieving (not permitting them to correctly grieve as a result of you’ll “see them once more” so why are you continue to so unhappy kind of factor) 

I additionally actually don’t consider that you just even have to essentially be spiritual to be able to consider that you will note family members once more in a heaven or in one other universe or no matter .. I feel that’s as believable as us ending up right here within the first place is. So I at the beginning don’t assume that perception must be thrown out when leaving faith if that perception nonetheless holds worth for you. There aren’t any guidelines in the case of these things, you are able to do it nonetheless you need. 

I used to assume it was unhappy when folks didn’t consider in afterlife – I now don’t assume it’s unhappy in any respect, I feel it’s a really realist and sensible outlook and for some the consolation blanket of afterlife isn’t vital. And I can even see how that may make folks actually take in what we get to have right here on earth extra, embracing the finality as soon as it’s completed. I feel for me I’ve to cling onto one thing as a result of I feel if I ever misplaced a baby or David I don’t assume I may survive with out that thought.. whether or not it’s we leap to a different universe and proceed on with life however with a brand new storyline or we reincarnate or we’re up in heaven having a flowery lil social gathering. 

Rosie just lately introduced up reincarnation and talked about how she actually likes that concept. And was increasing on the place she would ideally prefer to go .. however she stated any animal or human simply not an fish 🙂 and I informed her I feel you probably have that request the universe could make that occur! I feel there are a number of totally different choices for afterlife and no matter makes somebody really feel peaceable, wonderful. The primary factor for me when instructing my children is simply to show them that nobody is “flawed” .. we will all be open minded to different’s concepts and so long as they aren’t harming others we will respect these beliefs and share ours as properly. Our beliefs can even shift and alter – as we hearken to others we’d hear one thing we actually love that we need to deliver into our personal perception system. Actually, nothing is everlasting. 

As a number of you recognize, David’s brother handed away about 6 years in the past, after which shortly after his dad handed. After which only recently his mother. We’ve got additionally had each of my grandpa’s die within the final decade or so. After which in fact Chauncey :(. We’ve got been lucky to be left with a number of actually particular issues of theirs. I’ve so lots of my grandpa’s work and I maintain them on show within the house and in addition in a room upstairs the place I paint now. I do know this would possibly sound cooky however I’m 100% satisfied that the work maintain vitality that I merely can’t clarify in any means apart from to say I completely really feel it and really feel like I’ve weirdly gotten to know him extra or really feel near him via the work. I even have felt his vitality pushing me creatively the previous yr.. It has felt so palpable for me that it actually obtained me fascinated with vitality typically. We all know that vitality can’t be destroyed.. And we all know that we will *really feel* vitality each good and unhealthy and every little thing in between. We all know it’s there. I began to essentially love the concept once we die we depart behind all of our vitality. Particularly in issues like artwork or something we put vitality into (journals, cook dinner books that had been used, clothes, and so forth).. Possibly that is why artwork has such worth to sure folks and to not others. Possibly we do have artwork/aesthetic preferences in fact however possibly we additionally love the vitality that comes with it. 

I actually consider that we not solely depart behind vitality however that individuals can select to just accept the vitality or not. For instance once we really feel unhealthy vitality that doesn’t imply it routinely begins seeping into us.. We both let it are available in or not. So I began like a yr in the past actively attempting to “settle for” the vitality left behind by our family members who’ve left. Qualities about them that I actually liked and the fervour that they had for the issues we now have in our properties and hoping to let a few of that keenness enter my realm. It would sound foolish however I really feel like I’ve began to have deeper relationships with them even after they’re gone – like I’m able to get to know them. Which for me has been actually beautiful as a result of when David and I obtained married, his mother and pa had been on their mission in Costa Rica. Then after they obtained again, we had been dwelling in NYC they usually weren’t house for lengthy earlier than leaving on a second mission to Patagonia. In Patagonia is the place David’s dad discovered he had a mind tumor, which he died from shortly after coming house. I at all times really feel so emotional that I by no means obtained to get to know him extra, as a result of he actually simply appears so outstanding and so cool. Being open to this concept of accepting his vitality – the vitality he left behind in his movie digital camera that david now makes use of, the rocks he discovered whereas touring the world as a geologist, the books he learn, the photographs he took. He was so inventive and adventurous and free spirited and I really like having the ability to soak all that up. And David’s mother was sooooo angelic and sort and affected person and artistic and such an amazing painter. I’m hoping to get a few of her portray provides so I can use these and once more hopefully have a few of her loveliness rub off on me. Ehren David’s brother was at all times thrifting and being inventive and was so enthusiastic – he liked a very good thrifted discover and I’ve completely accepted all of his treasure looking vitality and love to take a look at the items he gave us that we’ve on show in our house… together with so many different issues from every particular person. So many wonderful qualities we will tackle from our family members who’ve left us it’s so particular. 

This has additionally made me understand the significance of simply placing vitality into issues that may be left behind for our family members. How wonderful to have vitality crammed gadgets that they will then settle for all of our great qualities and use them all through their lives. 

Anyway, I really feel like that is ending considerably abruptly however these are simply my “work in progress” ideas for the time being. I’d love to listen to yours as properly so be at liberty to share within the feedback and please be respectful to all! Xoxoxoxo 


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